In life as a general statement you have to believe in yourself. If you wait for others to cheer you on or pat you on the back, you're just wasting your time. Being on this earth 26 years and 30 plus some odd days I find that you can create yourself. Whatever people thought about you or you thought about yourself isn't necessarily what you should hold on to for the rest of your life.
For the first part of my life I was a sweet kid, then a hardcore academic, then a beer slinging college student that happened to play rugby, then a competitive rugby player, and now I'm at yet another stage of my life where I find the definition of myself changing. Rugby will forever be my sport but the fun has gone from it. And over the last year I've been a little lost, I mean what do you do when your dream of being on the USA Women's Rugby team is gone and its no longer fun to work towards it. I think I changed, and that dream didn't fit me anymore or full fill me. I was lost, rugby was always my home, and my community.
I started Crossfit in March of 2011, although I did not take it seriously until maybe June 2012? If I'm being honest that's when I didn't just "show up". Who I want to be is what Crossfit offers. I love eating Paleo, I feel better, I'm not as jiggly, and it will help push away my inevitable of future diabetes running through my genetic code. Crossfit allows me to not make excuses for myself, and to push myself to do things I figured I couldn't do. Like gymnastic movements I thought they were not my thing.........but I can do them now. I'm crazy competitive, mainly with myself........which is why I've found a home with Crossfit.
I have to say I really don't miss drinking ever weekend, eating pizza, and waking up to bad decisions made the night before. I'm willing to take the path less traveled. I have plenty of time in my life to drink beer and eat bon bons. But why not step out of the norm, and do something that continues to make me uncomfortable?
I promise not to give up on myself. I think that's what we all do, we give up and say the "C" word.......Can't. That's a horrible word. If I can go from never doing a strict pull up in my life to 10 reps on November of 2012...........can't is not a possible out come. Never look at an element in your life as defeating. And from my experience always look to change.
