UNFLINCHING

You ever try to overhaul you life? It's a daunting task I must say but I feel it's worth it in the end. I've written down large goals or large visions I'd like to accomplish this year. They are not resolutions, because they are not empty promises to myself. These are concrete goals and visions. Underneath each goal/vision are timeline milestones...........big rocks to hop to as I go. Then underneath those are action items to complete to get me to the milestones. Each action item has a clear description, how this will be effective and when I want to complete it.

It looks like this:
Goal: Increase Fitness
          Milestone: Increase endurance
                       Action Item #1: log 3 endurance workouts a week, 20 minutes of work or more
          Milestone: Increase strength
                      Action Item #2: Do 3 power lifting movements, 3 times a week, follow a program

One might think this is NUTS!!! But when I check off each action item how excited am I going to be?!!! I'll be so elated. Shit will get done.

One vision that is the most daunting is facing my demons, difficulties, and challenges. I feel like I've been ignoring certain problems, themes, and obstacles in my life since I was at least 15 years old. I do this by ignoring them, buy crap, or engaging in destructive behavior that just isn't who I am currently. I'm lugging around huge boulders.........I'm done with it. I came across this quote and I feel this is where I want to be by the end of this year. I have a total of 4 books by Pema Chodron, this is the first I've started to read. I will keep you posted..........no pun intended, about my "awakening" with every book I read.

"Lean into the sharp points and fully experience them. The essence of bravery is being without self-deception. Wisdom is inherent in (understanding) emotions."
---- Pema Chodron

                                              

If we avoid the sharp points in life, we just make our lives more complicated and stressful. So I'll face into my issues this year and clean up my internal being.

Another vision of mine is to me exactly who I am on the inside.......no more bullshitting myself and others. I want to learn how to play the bagpipes, I want not drink alcohol much anymore, I want to be an absolute fitness beast, I want to get a tattoo, I want to be raw and unflinching. Unflinching, that's the vision.............
What does that mean..........well according to Merrier-Webster Dictionary (had to be official):

Unflinching

not flinching or shrinking; steadfast; uncompromising

Synonyms: determined, dogged, unrelenting, relentless, unappeasable, and unyielding

Uncompromising

not making or accepting a compromise : making no concessions


These words are intense as hell, but this is how I want to live my life. How many people truly life like this? Or remember anyone who did? These two words are interchangeable but different in a sense. This how I'm going to get shit done. I want people to use these words when describing me...........

So my first challenge is to complete my goal and vision plan. Second challenge is to adhere to it, uncomprosmised by myself or my surroundings.

Stay tuned........