What Dreams May Come

For the life of my I never remember my dreams but this past week they were so epic how could I not. First one was of a man standing across from me, I can't remember the face. BUT I do remember is large penis and how it kept growing and swelling. It was white and beautiful let me tell you. Then a few nights after my dream was of serial killer nature. I was hiding out in an abandon cave covered with snow hiding and trying to defeat this killer. They continued to kill on a college campus. Then the third wacked out dream was of how I went to work out and the work out entailed at hang power clean twice my weight.......let just say that A TON for me. My dreams usually come true in some way or faction. With that said I have no clue how these are related....I believe they are fear based. I think I need to stop eating so close to bed time.

My interpretation of my dreams are..........I will find a man with a big beautiful penis but I haven't met him yet, stop being afraid of going back for my masters, and create a plan to increase my fitness.

I believe stress and fear are at the root of these dreams. Why do I find life so funny but yet it gets the best of me at time. People say I'm too hard on myself but I think of it in a much different way. If you aren't critical on yourself then how do you identify your weakness and where you lack to become better than you were yesterday? That vision of myself is not me stoning the current me in public! Its of what I want to become and should. Why spend everyday just being the same person you were the day before or tomorrow? I know I can be better...................................................

My next step to being a better me is being social this weekend but in a nondestructive way. Actually opening up and meeting people. Hell who knows a new guy. The old guy, I don't even miss and he bored the hell out of me in a way.

So here I am rambling on about many levels of sub conscious. Those dream are too detailed not to mean anything to me. But instead of dream..........I plan to go out and get shit done